After a weekend, during which I had five separate, dramatic meltdowns,I knew the meeting with my doctor was not going to go well today (“Well Mrs Tabb, rocking in a corner at toddler group will probably be totally appropriate. So off on your merry way!”)
No in fact the general consensus is that I need to be here for at least another week. I have mixed feelings about this. Initially relief because I’m clearly not well enough to function ‘out there’ since walking down a crowded street is a little much for me at the moment. Secondly, totally guttedness (is that a word ?) that I will be away from Super Kid and Robo Boy for so much longer. I miss them so much it hurts like physical pain. Thirdly, whey! more hospital food. You have to love the ‘ identify the cubed-insipid-coloured-vegetable’ game whatever your mood is like.
The other news is that they are starting me on a new antidepressant. After the first one gave rise to a massive panic attack and a general feeling of doom, this seems like a good plan. In the meantime while we wait for it to kick in I get to continue on the ‘blue smarties of wonderfulness!’ OK so I can’t easily construct verbal sentences or pair shoes but at least my brain is quiet for a while, which is welcome relief.
So I sit and wait it out. I move between the day room and my bedroom. I make small talk with the other patients (“how you feeling today ?” “like death” “oh” and moving on…). If I’m lucky there might be a craft activity happening, there is a rumour that tomorrow we will be making festive bunting !! Even the physiotherapists visits to talk about my pelvic floor, break up the day.
I need you, my readers, out their in the technicolor world. Tell me what you did today ? I don’t care how mundane, but try to keep it cheerful. I’d love to hear from you so please leave me comments.
Hugs to you!! You don’t want to know about my day but know I’m thinking of you!! Hope the new meds work. Out of interest do you know tge name of the others you were taking? Xxx
I was taking Peroxatine, im now on Sertraline. Sorry your day hasn’t been great either.
I woke up, took Citalopram :), went to work, had Chinese for lunch with some colleagues and now I’m heading home to do homework with the kids and get them clean and read them books.
Mmmm Chinese , beats hospital food, bet your drugs even taste nicer 😉
I hope the new meds help you this time, I know it can take a while to settle on them. My day started off with blind fury at my husbands family, see blog if you want to read my ranting. Then I went to post office and waited around like lots of other tweeps. I need to point out that monday is my one day where big girl is in school, and little one is in nursery, so I also make sure I rest my stupid back. Then I bought some woolly tights which will no doubt not fit as I’m a short bum. Then it was feet up till school run.
Well, you did ask…….are you still awake?! Hello?
Of course I’m still awake. Honestly your day was way more fascinating than mine. Thanks for sharing.
Hello hello 🙂 glad to see you back.
Sorry you have been having a tough time. I am in awe of you though. blogging away managing to keep sane. Loving your kids so much and the blue smarties sound wonderful.
My day was a very ordinary day but it was pretty blissful. I didn’t do any chores or even the little tidy up job I need to do so dear hubby can decorate more of my study. pictures of study progress coming to my blog soon.. ( it is rock and roll my life..I tell ya 🙂
We took a cautionary peek out of the front door this morning and were greeted by an icey winter wonderland. we wrapped up warm inc thermal legs each and set off for school. I had to turn my head fully to see Jake,( due to my hooded scalf- a vision in bright pink) I knew he was there as he was holding my hand..but I need to see him too.
we stomped across the crispy grass blowing massive puffs of smokey air. It really was very very cold.
Was glad to get jake to school. managed to get his thermal legs off without too much embarresment and he settled lovely into school.
I walked home leaving a little bit of my heart sitting in class but smiling as all was well with my world.
Got home and the relief to strip off all my layers puff up my hair and get warm was immeasrable. hence my blog post about being Thankful- that and a display of spoilt unthankfulness from Amy yesterday evening..
I watched tv and wandered around the blogging /facebook world. thought of watching a film but ran out of time ( I know honestly)
Got a delivery. thorntons ohhh yummy box after box of wonderful chocalateness. some of it free with the deals and I could even sample some. it was lovely. Nice big boxes for dear hubby and Amy for Birthdays too.
I had a nap. I missed lunch and before i knew it, it was time to get the kids again.
warmer now just needed gloves and a scalf. waited for jake. there are a few friendly faces there now. its taken a while to warm up. found out Jake is to be a page boy carrying one of the kings gifts for baby jesus.. so proud, thats a made up role right lol who cares- I just know my baby will be adorable.
Home again. chilling eating more chilling hugs, giggles one time out and the introduction of the elf.. known as elfy to his friends see my blog for more details.. soon anyway..
Its time for my dinner. yum gammon and mash and rocket.
btw when I was in hospital with Jake. had to stay a couple of weeks with both my babies due to pre eclamsia hubby used to bring me yummy dinners and sometimes I would go get some air- sign out for a walk in the garden and make a break for it in the car to the local chippy. just sitting in the car with hubby would give you a bit of non observed time. x
pls excuse the spelling nad the muffle in a rush and no spell check 🙂
Thanks for your reply. Really got a clear picture of your day , which sounded lovely. I’m not sure yet what Super Kid’s role in the nativity will be , can’t wait to see him in it though !
I am sat here trying to think of something funny, umm fail!!! Well my day has really been a bit boring, usual juggling my several work hats in the hope that one day I just be able to wear one 🙂
Had some fab news from a friend, can’t say but it always good to know someone has had some good news, and she is lovely so that is great 🙂
It good that they are changing your ‘drugs’ sometimes takes a while before they find the right one. They are vary on different people too. Sorry your not having much fun and horrid food. I won’t tell you what we had, it was awful of course!!! Panic attacks suck I know, so let hope your new ‘drugs’ sort that out. They kindly took away a huge chunk of my life, I really should of had ‘drugs’ but I am a bit crap like that. Since learnt that drugs are pretty cool at sorting stuff like that out, so stick with Mrs 🙂
Hope they sort your crafty thing out, did you see Christine at Thinly Spread and her new pom pom makers, it sent a lot of Pom pom love about the place.
Right I waffling now, like I wasn’t from the start but you did say……
Take it easy in there and keep up the pelvic flooor exercises, could do with doing some of them too!!! xxxxxx
Thanks for your waffling I loved it. I’m sitting here in the day room enjoying that you all care enough to come and bring a bit of your worlds too me , brilliant. I fancy making Pom poms must pop over the Christine’s blog.
Today I…coughed a lot, mourned my lost voice, got to leave work early (due to points 1 and 2), watched star trek, played with the cats, and I’ve topped a fine day off by making jelly 🙂 hope the new meds start to work for you x
Star Trek and Jelly, now I’m proper jealose. Was it star trek or deep space nine ? I actually have a bit of a crush on Jon Luke Picard, he can ‘make it so’ in my house any time he likes !
it was of course star trek next gen, picard rules supreme in this house! And raspberry jelly, which I am waiting patiently to set, not at all thinking about drinking it from the mould…:)
Only drink from mould if you add vodka.
omg I forgot the love muffin.. Amy got her first ever boyfriend.. so I gave her a love muffin for tea. its an ordinary if very yummy choc muffin the rest is mummy sillyness 🙂
Moo did a massive poo today. It went all up her back, which hasn’t happened for a while (must be all the seasonal fruit I’m feeding her). She also grabbed her nappy while I was changing her, and I somehow knelt in it. So: shitty knee. Then she kicked her legs up in the air, grabbed her (still shitty) bumcheeks, and guffed at me. And, all this time, I was singing Wind the Bobbin Up, in the vain hope that she would lie still and let me change her.
This has been the highlight of my day. I was going to blog it, but decided to keep it just for you 🙂
YOU’RE WELCOME… 😉
Omg blogging gold and you gave it to me. Shitty knees and face farts are actually making me think my day was a good in , so thanks.
Hi lovely, I hope you are feeling alright(ish), well as alright as the situation allows. We’ve been busy making cupcakes today and fighting sleep deprevation but Amy was a good girl and only woke twice instead of the usual 11 times, so I really hope it wasn’t a fluke.
Hope your new meds will kick in soon and start helping you. I’m sure you can’t wait to go back home. Keep on thinking positively and you’ll be with the boys and Dave soon
Lots of love,
Caro & Amy xxx
Thanks. Cupcake making sounds good and from the look of your pictures on Facebook you are getting rather good. Glad Amy is sleeping a little better. I am hoping the meds will work too , can’t wait to be back with my family.
Well, I am trying my best. I got a new nozzel (God, that must sound sooo boring) and the swirls are really easy to do now. Next mission is piping roses. Will see how I get on with that x
Today, I was inspired, by you, to start blogging. I’m now knitty mummy!
That’s brilliant, enjoy. I’ll take a look when I get the chance.
Firstly, Motherventing – I’d highly recommend the Rabbits change mat http://www.rabbitts.com/products.htm
Although it won’t prevent all mishaps it does reduce the variables 😉 revolutionised change time for us! Anyway your story cheered me up (not sure I should say that 🙂
So my day…Leo’s been poorly all weekend, vomiting once a day and teething. So was quite relieved when, after just a few brief moans through the night, he woke at 7am. Had a feed…kept wanting more and having some water. Eventually, after catching XFactor’s Janet on Daybreak (tragic I know), we headed down for breakfast.
Leo was very keen running straight to his high chair, shouting “yummy”! So I decided to risk giving him porridge…I was just mixing a small amount with milk when…projectile vomiting returned all down his front, my pyjamas and slippers. Que fun of trying to mop it all up whilst keeping small child out of it…all the time all he wanted was some food.
Determined that food was probably not a good idea just yet I decided we should both go and have a shower. Now I knew this may have been a mistake but really wanted to clean us both up ASAP! Well I managed to shampoo my hair but conditioner and brushing it through was just not happening. I cut my losses and we both got dried and dressed with a lot less difficulty than expected.
Now I needed breakfast but didn’t really want Leo eating…well I got away with giving him a rice cake and a crust of toast.
I decided to go to the chemist, collect a prescription and ask the pharmacist for advice…surprise surprise she couldn’t really help – “if you’re concerned see your doctor”
So doctors is next door, off I go…”not sure if I need to see a doctor but…” was recommended to go for the end of surgery – come back at 12pmand wait.
Quick Leo off to sleep then…WOW you did! Right washing up, clearing up, washing put away, more washing hung up. Maybe I can sit down and have a drink.
Woke up just in time to go back to the doctors, lucky boy! Sat in crowded waiting room all he wanted was “snacks” a little embarrassing. Managed to distract him so he only had 2 rice cakes.
Doctor said he has a bit of a temperature and his tummy feels off – probably a virus and no connection to head injury (threw himself off the sofa Friday night).
Back home for a little lunch, attempts at reading books and other entertaining. Ooh 2.30pm perhaps another nap? No that’ll never work you look wide awake. Oh well let’s try anyway, hmm quiet – hoorah, tv for me 🙂
Must have napped for 3.5-4 hours today. I guess he needs it, let’s see how tonight goes.
Wow, I sure can waffle…time for bed now.
Hope my tedium gives you a few minutes distraction and if we’re all better for 48 hours we’ll come and visit!
Hope you’re feeling better soon xxx
Hi Mandy , sorry to hear Leo has been under the weather, hope he perks up soon. You sure can waffle, perhaps you should take up blogging ?
keep in mind the possibility of a milk allergy.
Hello! I haven’t posted before but have been following for a while. I’m on a career break from a mental health ward, so I know what they’re like!
I hope the new medication works well.
So, onto the mundane. Today I have been to Uni and realised I know nothing! Then I came home and dealt with two tired children before looking at blogs/twitter all night!
Hello, what are you studying. I realised I know nothing years ago. Thanks for commenting.
I’m studying philosophy, politics and economics. I think you know more than you think you do! I’m just waiting for that moment when it all clicks!
Wow , well then good luck with that clicking moment !
Hello Ella I didn’t realise you had experienced such a crappy time at the weekend as I wasn’t on twitter much.
Anyway, let me cheer you up………… Here is what I have been up to since Friday in a summary
*Have had no hot water or heating at home so spent all weekend at my mums and yesterday and today at OH’s mums
*Jenson has been sick all over me and him three times since Saturday from too much crying (twice)at bedtime and from my milk going down the wrong way
*Jenson had me up from 2.30-5.45am this morning – don’t really know why
*i made two yummy homemade soups (tomato and mushroom & cauliflower)
*i wrote another post about pooing, wee-ing and willies!!
Uhm I also did some other stuff but that sticks out in my mind the most.
Oh and here is a little joke for you
Knock knock
(yes you say who’s there?)
Lego
(you say Lego who?)
Lego of me please, i Can’t reach the doorbell lol
Anyway, take care and I know it sucks being away from your boys but you will soon be home again xxxx
Love the joke. Will save it for Super Kid. Also could use some of that yummy home made soup here, the food is atrocious. Thanks for your comment.
Hello …. went to the park as usual with Little A but today granny came to visit too which is why I am finally able to comment on your post. Little A has started asking the question ‘whats that’ and perfectly articulated the word ‘constipation’. Its also a very windy day today….. hope the new meds work. fingers crossed. XXX
Thanks , hope the word constipation proves a useful one for little A.
Today has not been very exciting…let’s see…it was funny when the shopping delivery came and it was a woman deliverer and my son asked her very loudly, ‘where’s the shopping man?’ I was mortified. There clearly needs to be more women delivery drivers to even up the gender balance! Hope tomorrow is a good day for you xxx
It’s a very good point that most delivery drivers are men. Perhaps delivery vans make good man shed’s. Tommorow we are doing cooking with the OT so that will break up the day a little.
Hope you are doing ok 🙂