I have been in hospital for nearly two weeks now. For most of this time I have felt terrible. Full of anxiety and very very down.
I started a new antidepressant (Sertraline) four days ago. The doctors said it will take ten days to a fortnight for it to start working. However yesterday and today a tiny little crack opened up in the huge grey cloud that has been covering my head for a few months now.
I still feel very anxious, paranoid, and generally useless. But somewhere in there a part of me can now see that I am going to get better, that there is hope. It is tenuous and I am praying that it sticks around or even starts to open wider to let the sun in.
I am missing home terribly and not being with my kids physically hurts. However I know I can’t rush the process of getting home because I don’t want to undo the good work that has been done. Wonder Girl is doing brilliantly. She is happy and content and has started sleeping really well here in her cot (ssshhh don’t tell the jinxy pixies).
So here’s hoping that things are (finally)starting to get better.
Glad your feeling a bit brighter 🙂 here’s to that crack opening a lot wider to let lots of sunshine in. x
That comment sounded generally a bit wrong, but I will leave it as it is to make you smile!!! 🙂
I could not be more glad for you and I am keeping everything crossed you manage to see some improvement every day.
You are so brave and I know I cannot imagine the suffering having not lived through it.
Hope and expectations for the best are a wonderful positve energy.
I remember feeling very poorly once with a horrible virus that had me lose a stone off a 8 stone frame, I felt dreadful for ages. Then one day it rained and rained in a monsoon type way and I pulled up the blinds to take it all in, it felt so refreshing to feel the coolness and hear the sounds of the drops hammering down, I even got a little splashed sitting on my bed.
I found new hope in the cleansing rain, as I lay there afterwards breathing in one of my favourite smells, the world after the rain.. I was sure I would be better soon ( and I was)
I hope your rain comes soon x
Wow that’s a lovely image and yes I’m looking forward to my rain, perhaps tommorow.
Fab news! And that is just the beginning…a little bit of light to remind you of how wonderful life can be…