I am having a good day. I feel reasonably cheery, and optimistic. I achieved things today including the baking of some rather delicious cherry and chocolate chip cookies. I didn’t shout or cry at my children, hooray.
I am currently averaging one of these kinds of days to every two “I am really struggling to cope, not cry, and keep plodding on” days. This is an improvement from where I was two months ago. So tomorrow I am being discharged as an inpatient, I am going home.
I will be coming to hospital as a day patient, just one day a week, to continue to get support. So six days and seven nights of the week I will be in charge again. I will be cook, cleaner, launderer (clothes not bank notes),child wrangler, baby entertainer, extraordinaire.
I won’t lie, I am apprehensive about how I will cope. After three months as an inpatient it’s going to be strange to be in the real world full time (well as real as it gets for a pixie loving, purple wearing odd bod). It is simply hard work having three small children, that’s just a fact, so I am going to have my moments. So to finish off I’m going to share a funny story from today, these are the moments that I’m going to hold onto as I adjust to my ‘real’ life.
I took Robo Boy to playgroup this afternoon. He is currently going through an interesting (slash infuriating) stage. He has discovered shopping and every time we leave the house he is asking for things. Including rather amusingly his own ladies handbag earlier in the week.
So this afternoon he has his eye on a bouncy ball. He asked all the way to playgroup if I would buy it him. I told him “no shopping today, only playgroup”. When we got to the playgroup he started to play with a toy telephone. He then proceeded to bring it over to me. He told me he had been talking to daddy on the phone and that daddy had said that I should buy him his bouncy ball on the way home! I didn’t let him outwit me though (I am just about cunning enough to keep one step ahead of a three year old). I simply had a chat with daddy on the toy phone , and informed Robo Boy daddy had changed his mind and we should go straight home, no shopping. Hilarious!
Haha, he’s just too clever. I shall remember your little trick for when Amy starts to demand bouncy balls 🙂 x
I know ! Yes , she will be demanding lollipops in what seems like the blink of an eye, did I hear she’s walking now ?
ha ha good one Mummy!!
Good luck with moving in back hone again Ella – of course you will have your moments – we all do though and we all have good and bad days but i know yours are for different reasons. You will be fine – just keep baking food for them all xx
Thanks I definatly need to remember that I will have bad days just for regular reasons and it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m not coping.
As a grandmother I just love this stories. I tell you, to be a grandmother is really something to look forward to. Just enjoy this lovely moments is much easier as a “mormor” when I don´t have to have the 24 h 365 days/ year responsibility. But I can see that you have the gift to be “in the moment” and enjoy it. “God bless you” and just look at the bad moments as they come and they will go!! Mother or grandmother;`We need to keep the good times in our minds.
Love the bouncy ball moment!!
Really good news that you are going home!
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Hey ace idea that on the telephone may have to try that trick mysef. Me as Robo Boy though 😉
So glad all is working out for you and your coming home. That baking has done a whizz of a job hasn’t it! xxxxx